“Trust in
the Lord with all your heart, and do not rely on your own insight.
In all
your ways acknowledge the Lord, and the Lord will make straight your paths.” (Prov. 3:5-6)
‘I promise to be
different . . . ‘(which we have been explicitly taught to believe is ‘better’)
is what we essentially say when we make a resolution at the beginning of a New
Year. It is also what is essentially said when we confess our sins and seek
God’s pardon. ‘I promise to be different . . .’
Not to be overly
cynical but, in an effort to be transparent, rarely am I different for the sake
of someone else or at another’s demanding, even that of God. God and others
often help me to see there is a different way, yet until I choose that for
myself it is little more than someone else’s notion of how I should live my
life. A New Year’s resolution, like a vow ‘not to sin again’, made to satisfy
another will seldom bear fruit, whether it is about losing weight, doing more exercise,
trying to incorporate time spent reading or vowing to takes days off as I tell
others to do. No, a resolution made for the sake of another is not my
resolution. It is simply a means to appease, to acknowledge, or even acquiesce
. . . it is not my own.
On the other hand, a
personal decision made to change direction, whether in the gym, in the church
or in the very Presence of God is just that: A personal decision. Individual or
corporate confession cannot coerce such a decision, neither can a resolution
give voice to such a choice. It is personal, requires commitment and demands
integrity for such a change of direction to be true . . . and includes
accountability.
God could lead the
Israelite children out of Egypt, separate the sea, overwhelm the Egyptian
armies and guide them towards freedom, but God could not coerce the Israelites
not to build a golden calf or murmur about quails and manna or even to stop
complaining when they were thirsty. Upon entering the land, the Israelites had
to make a personal decision about whom it would be that they would worship and
follow, as Joshua said to them, “Choose this day . . . “
John the Baptist
could exhort the masses to confess their sins and be baptized, but he could not
force them to live the meaning of baptism, such were the brood of vipers.
Jesus could heal the
sick, cleanse the lepers, feed the hungry, give drink to the thirsty, address
the powers and principalities, even take on the cross itself, but He could not
keep the disciples from running away in fear, the crowds from thirsting for
blood or even the remnant who stayed with Him from believing in the power of
death. It was only when they chose for themselves to believe in the empty tomb,
whether because they viewed His pierced hands and feet and put their hands into
the wound in His side or because they heard from others and were convinced it
was true . . . It was only when they chose for themselves to believe that they
were able to ‘change direction’ and become truly trusting of the Lord with all
their heart – and affect such change in others.
Change: You can want
it for me, but you cannot demand or require it of me. It is the way we are made
by the One who designs and creates still.
In the coming days I
am committing my journey to living my humanity more fully in God, not so that I
can be viewed as ‘better’ or ‘more acceptable to Heaven’ but, rather, because
my heart of hearts longs for more than this world is capable of providing. What
I have not found in money or position or politics or power or even organized
religion, I am coming to discover and savor more fully in service to God with
family, congregation, community and world. It is a state of being human without
regard for that which government and media uses to separate and define us. It
is a state of being faithful without distinctions as classified by religion or
ethnicity. It is a state of identifying and embracing the holy and sacred in
others, even ourselves, regardless the profane which permeates that which many
accept as ‘the norm’.
It is not so much
about ‘change’ as it is a hope for ‘fully living’ the life we are given, I am
given.
Resolve away,
confess to your heart’s content, set it all in stone before the administrators
of the world, but until you choose the path to walk – and allow the journey to
become holy and sacred in your soul – nothing will change, ever. Have a blessed
New Year and may the Way of Christ and the trust of the Lord guide your steps
towards the Home of your being, the Realm of God already becoming known in love
as you are Loved.
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